Finding My Path...Consciousness (4/29/2006)

Finding My Path...Consciousness (4/29/2006)

Oddly enough, it seems sad to me that it is only at this point in my life that it is occuring to me that I need to consider my path and consciously be aware. Aware of what? I'm learning that is a trick question. The question isn't so much "WHAT" to be aware of, but simply being aware. An awakening of the senses to all that I see and feel and think. The biggest challenge for me is being MINDFUL and yet, not THOUGHTFUL. That simple statement was a conundrum spinning me further and further from the meaning the more I contemplated it. That thought in itself was my problem. I was "doing" exactly what it was that was causing my confusion.

I sought out assistance and input in hopes that I could find an explanation to this dilema that was worrying me. One of the most helpful ideas that was given me to assist in my understanding was an illistration. It painted a picture that helped clarify my thoughts.

Envision in your minds eye a place that offers you comfort. See your self there. While you are in this place, a train passes infront of you. You don't have to strain in any way to clearly see the train or any of its cargo. The pace of the train is perfect for you to clearly identify each car. Each car that the train pulls contains a thought or idea. Some may be plesant and others may be troublesome. You are aware of the content of the cars, and know that they are there. You see them, acklowledge them and then...let them pass, not dwelling on any particular one. Should you start to follow one particular car, you remember that you don't have to. The train belongs to you and you will be able to see any of these cars at any time. This, to me, is being MINDFUL.

Being mindful allows us to make choices and decisions that reflect our best intentions. This requires a lot of focus for me. It isn't as easy as it may sound. Infact, I struggle with this idea, but intend to continue to practice it.

So, what is my path? I can't be certain, but I am mindful of it, and continue in my search.

Wishing you all clarity in finding your path.